Okay, you're good, come on out and let's talk, but shhhhh, try to talk quietly. In the middle of the night is one of the rare interludes of time in prison when it's super quiet. you may hear some metal doors clanking shut in the background and/or some distant, incoherent voices of guards gossiping about, what else, yes, the prison life soap opera, but that's about it. It's also during this late night time period when so-called "straight" men aren't so straight after all, but I won't expose anyone and won't get into that subject (wicked grin). keeping to myself and minding my own business has proven to be a successful formula for me surviving, and living, drama-free, in prison, so I think I'll keep applying what works, but I may write a blog - without exposing anyone - about the wild sex culture and lifestyles that are perversely prevalent in prison.
Anyone who knows me, knows I normally don't stay up this late, so maybe it was meant for us to meet up and talk late into the night like this. Normally, on most nights, I'm one of those "early to bed, early to rise, makes a man healthy, wealthy and wise" type of guys.
I'm burning the midnight oil tonight because on the heels of my recent parole set-off, I have a lot on my mind ... (singing softly) ... I can't sleep, baby ... You're right, here I am telling you to be quiet and I'm singing. Sorry, but sometimes in this hopeless place, I can't help myself, I have to laugh (or sing) to keep from crying, but the tears seem to trickle out of my eyes at the most unexpected times, no matter what I do to stay upbeat.
I'm up late tonight doing some re-evaluating and thinking - it's good to think things out. As I read one of my favorite books, which some of you know, is Think and Grow Rich by Napoleon Hill. Mentally, I need all of the positive reinforcements I can get right now, and this book, no matter how many times I read it, never lets me down. I can randomly open it up to any page, and I always gain and retain something useful I can apply to my life. This book is like my second Bible. I'm serious. I read it every day, and when I reach the last page, I start the book over again, so that's saying a lot about the constructive content it contains. I don't just read it, I study the life-changing principles and laws that can affect my life existence, positive or negative, just as much as gravity.
Our subconscious minds will be fed something one way or another, whether voluntarily or involuntarily, so I'm effectively, and voluntarily, brainwashing myself with the same book that countless successful people have used over the past six decades to achieve my version and vision of success. And why not? I used to allow, involuntarily, negative influences - people, music, etc. - to brainwash my thinking patterns, so how much more something positive that has already produced positive results in my life.
You don't have to break your neck looking over my shoulder (smile). I'll be happy to show you what I'm reading. Here, scoot over a little and I'll hold the book between us so we can read it together.
"No two minds ever come together without, thereby, creating a third, invisible, intangible force which may be likened to a third mind [...]. When the minds of two people are coordinated in a spirit of harmony, the spiritual units of energy of each mind form an affinity, which constitutes the psychic' phase of the Master Mind."
Okay, let's skip down to the passage (I point) right here, "there follows, now, another statement which will lead still nearer to an understanding of the psychic phase of the Master Mind principle: When a a group of individual brains are coordinated and function in harmony, the increased energy created through that alliance becomes available to every individual brain in the group."
Wait, there's more. See where I have it underlined, "When two or more people coordinate in a spirit of harmony, and work toward a definite objective, they place themselves in position, through that alliance, to absorb power directly from the great universal storehouse of Infinite Intelligence. This is the greatest of all sources of power." [Chapter 10, Power of the Master Mind, pg. 149-151]
I don't know about you, but enlightening, inspiring words like these give me goosebumps. Makes me feel, with my own mind, I can accomplish anything. Most people will be quick to agree that the mind is powerful, but believing in something and actually using one's mind to bring a thought (idea, goal or vision) into physical existence with good, old-fashioned hard work and persistence are two different things. Now, when two or more minds are operating on the same wavelength, there is more power and energy, so some amazing things can happen. Some of the best examples of multiple minds working in conjunction are a movement, revolution, and a protest. Even in the Bible it says, "if two or more of you shall agree on earth as touching any thing that they shall ask, it shall be done for them of my Father which is in heaven" (Matthew 18:19).
My recent parole set-off of one year has left me seeking answers to the difficult questions that come naturally with being in prison 20 years for something I didn't do. Why am I still here? Why haven't I been exonerated? When will someone, a new witness or victim, come forward with the truth? When will I receive a monumental breakthrough in my case?
Not only am I seeking answers to my difficult questions, but I'm trying desperately to search the dark, ominous clouds hanging over my life right now for the slightest silver linings. you know something, the more I look for them - it's not rocket science (smile). The more I'm seeing the positive rays breaking briefly through the gloomy clouds and shining brightly into my darkness.
A couple of new people, and a few people from my past, have emerged in my life after my parole set-off to give me their moral support and to do what they can to help me fight my wrongful conviction. Every day I pray for the fight people to come into my life to help me in my fight. (And by the way, prayer is one of many ways we can use our minds to get what we want by communicating, in faith, our desired thoughts to both the universe and Mr. Infinite Intelligence (God). I've had so many people over the years come in and out of my life, some really genuine people with big hearts, who at some point ceased helping in my fight because they either didn't have the willpower or the time to continue. Some people enter our lives only for a season, they achieve their purpose in our lives and move on. Hey, I respect that. Me, I can't move on or give up. I'm in this for the long haul, and will battle my injustice, whether I'm locked up or free, until my last breath. The good thing is, as time passes, and the more I keep planting seeds through the gift of my writing, the more people are becoming increasingly aware about my wrongful conviction. Our team/army is growing, with each person playing their preferred role and contributing in their own unique ways to our fight. Some people have done more than others, but each action-seed that is planted on my behalf is equally important because it could prove to be the pivotal seed that ultimately leads to my exoneration.
there are several minds functioning in one accord and in a spirit of harmony in my life and my fight. Some of you know each other and some of you don't. However, sometimes when I'm sitting in my cell doing what I can to contribute to our fight be using my mind, faith, and pen, I can feel your collective presence, energy, and power, all around me, that your minds release for me when you think of me. When many people are thinking of the same thing and wanting the same thing, especially for a just and righteous cause, it's only a matter of time before it happens.
In the aftermath of my parole set-off, there has been an outpouring of support for me (thank you so much, all of you) and some good things have been happening (blessings in disguise), but I feel and foresee some greater things happening this year related to the fight for my exoneration. I know and believe a breakthrough is coming soon that will bust my case wide open and produce a snowball effect to exonerate me that Alton Jackson's false statement did to implicate me into this case. (Alton Jackson was the [at the time] 14-year old who was manipulated by the detectives, without a lawyer or guardian present, into signing a statement against me under the guise that it was his 'release' form. He did ten years in prison and was freed.)
In saying goodnight to you, I leave you with the definition for Master Mind: "Coordination of knowledge and effort, in a spirit of harmony, between two or more people, for the attainment of a definite purpose." I know many of you want me to attain my freedom via parole - I want the same thing and it's coming as soon as next year, June 2016, when I see parole again - but please don't forget about the "definite purpose" of us working together with our minds to attain my exoneration.